2011!!

My first post of the new year!! How refreshing!! I love new beginnings. I think that people can always start over fresh and it doesn't matter how many times you do it, it's always fun, new, and a little scary. The best times to start these "new beginnings" are usually times when you're going through changes in your life. Starting school (like when I started at college in the fall) or a new year (like now!!), or maybe a new job, move, or anytime you feel like it. :)

My last few hours of 2010 were spent at a friend's house. It was a small get together but we still had a blast. We built a fort (totally silly but totally awesome too!!) and did a bunch of other fun stuff. Then my first day of the new year was spent with friends again. We got our nails done, went out to eat, then Allison (one of my fav people in the whole world) slept over. We stayed up talking about everything and laughing our heads off. It was much needed.

Sadly, my laptop still isn't connecting to the internet and my mom's laptop bit the dust over new year's. I'm posting this from the library right now. I can't wait till I can get back to college (i miss everyone so much) so one of my nerd friends can fix it for me. I promise once it's fixed i'll be back out with tons of fun posts but until then i thought i'd just let everyone know i'm still alive and hoping for the best in 2011.

xoxo, Lauren

A Small Revalation of Sorts

This week has not been the best week for me. I've had multiple assignments due which means a crazy amount of work and as mentioned previously, an issue with one of my closest friends here. We talked tonight, and it'll be okay, but we both need some time to get back to where we were. However, I was still pretty upset about it and the conversation ended with me going back up to my room and crying. I was texing Patrick (also known as Mystery Badger) and he was being so sweet about everything.

I decided I would spend the rest of my night in my room on my laptop trying to get homework done. About a half an hour in, no homework had even been started and I was still just as upset when my phone rang. It was Patrick, telling me that I was going to meet him and Molly, a good friend in the making, at Einsteins, our library's version of Starbucks and a favorite place for students, to do some homework. I didn't want to, but he was a little insistent so I figured after making him listen to me being all sad I could at least agree to meet him.

I'm so happy I did. I ended up running into a few other friends, talking with people, laughing, and even got a little homework done. By the time one am came around and they were kicking us out I was laughing and smiling and feeling much more like myself. I thanked Patrick for making me come out about 50 times, but he deserved it.

So here's the part where my revalation comes into play: As I've said before, this is my fresh new start. I'm still working through the past and that will take a long time but I'm working on it and I'm making sure to do things differently here. Yeah, bad things are still going to happen. Upsetting things too. But what I realized tonight is that it's already different. Had this been high school, none of my friends would have called to make me go out. They would have let me be in my room alone. Here, I have people who care enough about me to do something to make me feel better. I have people that I can trust. I have people that think I matter. Because I do. Things may not be perfect, nor do I want them to be, but I'm still a pretty lucky girl.

My List of 19 Things

I turn 19 in a little over 4 months. It's not a big deal really, I'm enjoying life as it comes and trying to take it slow for the most part. However, as much as I am happy to let life pass as slowly as possible so that I can drink in every second of it, there are sooo many things I would like to accomplish. I hate the idea of making a bucket list. It freaks me out way too much. Therefore, I have decided to start out small and make a list of "19 Things to Accomplish Before I Turn 19". They will be some of the random things I want to do, ranging from small to big. Because I only have about 4 and a half months, and limited money, they will be on the smaller side, but important none the less.

I'm hoping to have an official list done by Friday (but depending on my class workload we'll see...) and although I will be announcing it here, I plan on also making a separate page so that we can all track my progress.

At the moment, I only have a few ideas to put on the list. One of the major ones is to get my ears pierced. I know, most girls got their ears pierced long ago but not me, hence why it's going on the list. Another goal is to make honest to God spatzle. I love the stuff and want to try making it myself for once. I'm still working on a few more ideas, but I'd love some help. I'm not promising to use every suggestion you guys give me, but I'd love to hear your ideas!!

I'm All Moved In!!

I'm not going to be posting for very long today. It's been crazy busy. I got all moved in yesterday. In the span of a few hours I signed all the paperwork, got a new card, packed, and moved. I'm in an all sophomore dorm, but it's all good. I even have a friend from my history class who is in my hall and he's super cool. (And to anwser the question you're probably thinking, I'm pretty sure he's gay so no possible romance here. Hahaha) My new living space is better. It's a 4 person suite, 2 people to each room although we're still waiting for one more roommate. We have a bathroom and a little living room as well. I'm hoping I can bring my TV soon. :)

My roommate and suitemate seem nice. I haven't talked much to either of them; one seems to always be going out and the other seems to always be in her room with the door closed. I'm okay with that though. As long as we aren't getting along badly, I will not complain.

I'm just so glad everything worked out. Like I said in a previous post, now I can focus on things getting betting and continuing to move forward. Hopefully I can post some pictures of my new room and living space soon for you guys but my roommate was asleep before and I didn't want to wake her up.

And just as a little sneak peek, I can't wait to tell you about some of the fun things that are happening. Cute boys, dancing competitions, and all that fun stuff. ;)

Looking on the Bright Side

I haven't blogged in a few days. Bad me. I've been a little stressed out, to say the least. I'll give you a quick rundown as to why I've been so upset, then I'm going to write about some happier things.

Long Story Short...

I thought my roommate issues were okay, until we had a little fight about keeping the sink clean on Wednesday. That opened the door to a whole other side of my roommate. We resolved it mostly, but things were still a little tense. On Friday we got a letter for one of us to leave and my roommates baiscally told me they expect me to move outbc they want more space. Then my mom and I, who are very close, started having some issues as well. Trying to get out a little, on Saturday I went to williamsburg with 2 friends and had a GREAT day. We had so much fun shopping (on a college budget, but still) and laughing. Once we got back to campus, the roommates were being evil yet again and all I wanted was to talk to my mom but I couldn't bc we were both upset with each other. I was really sad that night and spent it all alone in my room.

This morning I woke up feeling MUCH better. I met the person I am supposed to room with. She seems nice, but I just don't think it will be a great match... However, I am not living with my current situation because the people i live with now have shown me just how hurtful and low class they can be. I finally called my mom :) and she helped me decide that tomorrow I am walking over to housing and asking to be placed elsewhere.

Its been a little tough but I'm going to trust that this is all happening for a reason and it will work out how it is supposed to. I'm not the type of person to be sad and down for long, so I am going to point out some of the positives.

I've only been at college for about a month, and am slowly starting to make friends. The fact that I had people who wanted to know why I was sad, if they could help, and how I was doing showed me that there are some people here I do like and get along with that have the potential to be great friends. Two girls (one a close friend from HS, another we recently met) took a walk around campus with me in our bare feet at one AM. Aside from a few scary bugs we had fun running through the wet grass and laughing at the weird people still awake.

My one roommate has barely been in the room. I guess she's trying to show me how much she doesn't want me here. That makes me a little sad bc I enjoyed laughing with her before but I've used all my free alone time today to recopy my math notes, read for english, organize my desk, wash my huge pile of dishes, and eat really crunchy food without worrying about bothering her.

I can only think of one more good thing, but at least I found 3 good things out of this. The last one is that as I've mentioned before, I was looking at being here as my fresh start from all the crap I dealt with during my senior year. I still am. This little thing will pass and things will continue going well. :) However, I had somehow gotten it in my head that since this was my fresh start nothing bad would happen because I was here. I think I needed to realize there are still going to be problems in my life. I'm still dealing with what happened senior year. That doesn't mean that good things can't happen. I can still be positive, happy, bubbly, and optimistic. I can still keep moving forward and enjoy things. I just have to learn to roll with the punches and know there will be amazing people (like my mom) in my life to be there for me.

A Fresh New Start

I started college just a few short weeks ago, but it already feels like it's been forever. I love that. I am enjoying my classes for the most part, and getting super involved. (Like, i'm already in 5 clubs with a full courseload) type involved. AND I am meeting people and making friends. I love it though. :)

I'm really looking at college as a fresh new start. My senior year was filled with a lot of hurt, pain, mistrust, and lots of other awful stuff. Although it's still going to take me awhile to really heal and move on, coming here is the beginning. I think and hope that it'll be just what I need.

This blog has undergone a few changes. I finally think the layout is what I want, and am pretty happy with my "cute as a cupcake" color scheme. :) I have so many plans for this blog as well. It's my place to share what's going on in my life as far as school, friends, college, and of course, guys are concerned. But I also have tons of ideas for crafy cutiebug related items that I can't wait to share as I get more followers. I'm thinking giveaways, featured shops, blah, blah, blah. And of course, I won't be holding myself to just what I mentioned above. I'm a free spirit and I'll write what I wanna write. Take that!! :)

For now, I'll be going. Already I think my weekend is off to a great start. Woke up to sales on etsy, my classes weren't too horrible, and I had an AMAZING evening with some people I already really like. But now it's time for bed, and hopefully sweet dreams at that. :)